Growing is a holistic process, so don’t just focus on your feelings. You need to make sure that you’re engaging in a whole body, mind, and spiritual practice for the maximum benefit.
Find an appropriate diet and exercise regimen that works for your body so that it can support all of the work you’re doing elsewhere in your life. Similarly, make sure that you continue to expand your mind.
Your mind is a tool that needs to be worked in order to function at a high level, and reading is one of the easiest ways to keep those gears oiled and ready to perform.